finally & slowly..i've learn to accept things & let it go slowly..

i realise..im beginning to accept things slowly..
like the person whom i love him as a brother so much..
was called home to be with Lord..
i accept that his has no longer here..
i begin to realise..
not all things we wish to hv can be ours..
its just like when u learn to walk & u fall..all u need is to get up on ur own
& walk again..
its all thanx to casey..
the man who washed out all my darkness..
and lighted it with his light and fire..
giving me the warm and comfortable..
being with him is really different from being with my ex..
from him..
i've learn to let go things that hard to let go..
from him..
i know what loves call..
being love doesnt seem to be the same..
he has showered me with his love and warm..
and thats what i always wished n wanted..
may he always shower me with his love and warm..
till the end of my life..
even in the next world..
all i want is him..
yep yep..
i am greedy..
greedy for his love and warm..
so what?
im not greedy of his fortunes..
i love him for who he is..
thats my aim..
get all his love n warm..
and own him all by my own..
i would love to let him own me all by himself too...
well i dont know what made me love him so so much..
but seriously..
hes the man..
im really inlove with..
a man whom i always dream for..
i love his smile..
i love his laughter..
i love his voice..
i love the way he is..
his everything perfect to me..
his my baby..
forever and ever baby ^^
i love to cuddle n hug him so much..
its just too warm to get away from him..
love to stick around him..
especially climbing n rolling on him..
his so so nice to be hug..
tho i see him in webcam n hug my pillow as if im hugging him..
the warm always there..
aww..
what a lovely hug!!!
i love to be cuddle n carry by him..
spinning around with him makes me smile more
and laugh alot..
i love him so so much..
may our marriage always turn blossom..
till the end of our life..
just me n him..
kim & casey
forever..

Little Angel begins to realise...

mom is right,im no longer a little angel..im growing..
growing into adult stage..2 more years i will be 20..
now,im almost reaching my mature stage that is 18th..
still im like a little playful angel,need attention from friends n family
and of course from my love..Casey..
mom told me,when will i ever change into a mature girl?
but the truth,i dont even know the answer too..
am i still childish?
i think i am..
mostly bcause i always love to be a baby to Casey..
but i do always think abt my life with Casey..
New life..
New family..
New born child..
and all i know i cant wait to get marry to Casey..
and i really want him to own me as soon as possible..
My love for him is getting stronger..
No one knows it
No one understands it
Only i know that i love him more than anything..
saying abt mature..
am i not mature??
if im not mature..
will i think abt getting marry with Casey?
or have kids with him?
of course i wont..
ppl who arent mature will never think abt tht..
mommy never understand me..
only one person who ever knew me deeply now..
and tho we r still chatting in msn..
yet he knows my character almost..
i love him so much..
and his the last man i ever wanna be with..
till the end of my life..
someday..
someday ppl will know..
why i love him..
as he is so special to me..
someday..
my parents wil know what made me love him that much..
someday..
the day will come..

U showered me with ur love..

u showered me with ur love,
u made me feel im wanted..
what we had gone through together
has made me realise how important
u are to me..
thank u for loving me
for who i am..
i may not hv anything to give u
but i could only afford to shower
u with my love..
forgive me if i hv hurt ur feelings..

forgive me if i couldnt afford to give u what u wanted..

One whole night he hasnt been on..

Have u ever felt what is the feeling
when suddenly he (ur love) didnt come online
as usual?
It feels painful...lonely..hurt..empty..
that is what I was going through one whole night..
Sleepless..
As because I'm use to when I'm asleep
hes by my side..
But last night..
He wasnt on at all..
I couldnt even sleep..
I barely closed my eyes..
Tears streaming down when each time I
turn myself facing the laptop..
He wasnt there..
Even u tried to pretend hes there..
But still it wont work,
because hes really isnt there..
I beginning to realise that I
cant live without him..
Even one day without seeing him
I feel pain in the heart..
The pain was like u were being stabbed..
by a sharp knife..
I'm feeling dissapointed...
And yet..
I have to go to school to sit for my last final exam paper
with the feeling of upset...
pain..
and empty..

I wrote a poem about LOVE.....

I wrote a poem about LOVE..
Which I hope it will last forever even we are apart..
I wrote your name on the sand..
But the waves washed it away..
I wrote your name on my diary..
But it was torn away..
I wrote your name in my heart..
Which I know it will last forever..
I wrote again your name,
On the rainbow..
To let the whole world know how special you are to me..
But one thing I want you to know,
It last FoReVeR..
Thank you for being such a perfect love to me..
And I hope we will never say good bye..

The day he met me,His Life totally CHANGED....

The day I met him,

Things totally changed..
Feelings begin to grow day by day..
Love @ first sight..
I begin to know I fell in love with him..
He,
Almost died for what he thinks in his mind..
He,
Who thought his life is worthless..
He,
Who thinks no one will ever love him..
He,
Who thinks it is the end of the world for him..
He,
Who had been through hard life..
He,
Who never smile for 3 years..
He,
Who thinks he should die..
A man like him,
Who has the heart of love for a woman..
And not all woman could ever find a man like him..
A man like him never exist anymore..
Even if u are willing to pay millions,billions of cash..
Just to find a man like him..
U still never ever get..
He may be rich,
But,If the woman who love him just because for his cash..
It's better u dont have to love him..
As he has feeling too because his a human too..
Love a man not because of his cash,
But love him for who he is..
Not what he has..
He is the man u will never ever can find..
A man who showers u with his love,
A man who cares u more than anything..
A man who will tolerate a woman's tempered...
All I want him to know is I always love him..
He is the man I always dreamed of..
A man who shower me with his love n joy..
A man who loves to carved a smile on me..
A man who wipes away my tears..
A man who protects me from danger..
A man who takes away my fear..
His my everything ..
I only think of him..
Trying to keep our relationship last..
Trying to hold him tight..
Never wanna let him go..
I found out and realise that I've grown alot..
Ever seen he came into my life..
He lead me to a mature world..
He made me realise what is diff..
Accepting the way I am..
He has a beautiful smile..
A nice warm voice..
That I adore alot..
He is perfect..
Hmm..
He is my true love..
My Boo..
My Baby..
My Hunny..
Even million or billion cant buy him..
He is cherish now..
I've never seen his so happy..
I mean,
The day I met him..
He wasnt the person I'm knowing now..
He loves to laugh..
He loves to joke around..
He is a perfect man now..
And I know I'm loving him alot now..
Without him..
I'm nobody..
At least..
I know..
He made me mature..
He made me grown up..
He made me learned to accept everything..
Abt me..
Abt the world..
And everything...
Thank u so much to him..
He made me think everything..
He made me feel happy alot..
All I want from him is..
May he always be happy..
This is all I ask from him..
I love u baby..
Now,Future,Forever..
U r the 8th and the last..
No one else..
Can ever replace u
In
My
Life..
Never

Now I know what my answer is..

After all we have gone through together..
I finally had my answer from my heart..
U r the only one I'm loving now..
U r the person I care..
And I realised u hv done many things to hv me..
U showed me the power of love..
U showed me what love calls..
And what will ppl do for their love one..
U opened my eyes..
And I finally saw it..
U cared me so much..
And I never felt that love feeling before..
After my ex gone..
Finally I know,
I found my true love..
U said,
In my life I needed u in it..
U determined to win it..
U know what I needed..
U know what's wrong..
U know how to make it tight..
Everything will be alright..
If I let u hold me..
And let u introduce ur world to me..
And introduced me to the better side of life that
i aint been seeing..
U'll show me how to get it..
All I got to be with and
let u hold me..
When I cry,
U wanna feel my pain..
No secrets,No games..
All excitement,Nothing plain..
Keep me happy thats ur aim.
U wanted me to have ur child..
U wanted me to be in ur life..
U showed me how important I am in ur life..
U proved to me that I never be alone..
U proved to me u loved me more than anything..
Many hard task we gone through together..
Finally I had the answer for u..
I love u so much and I'm willing to give u my heart..
U can have my heart 100%..
U can own me by urself..
No one shall take me away from u..
I finally know that I love u..
And I needed u in my life..
U gave me the warm I always look for..
U gave me to happiness I always wanted..
I'm urs now..
Forever and ever shall be urs..
I love u